To make a long story short.
I’ve never lost her, my little girl. Her innocence, playfulness, and spontaneity are my best friends in life and in my temple. Finally dance and my sexual drive empowered me to break through the fear into the full freedom of expression so I could be whole again. Belly Dance healed my feminine power and pushed me on the stage as a performer, crashing the shyness into 1001 pieces.
Sometimes I cannot believe to be me... from an ugly duck into the fiery Red Goddess! Huh, what a journey did I do. I hated my body for so long...
disgusted by my own image in the mirror. Now I call myself naked pure perfection and that’s how I feel. I was highly ashamed of my body-sexuality but I was already experimenting with my pussy in the age of five.
Intense, isn’t it?
So what is my secret?
I survived it all. Catholic church conditioning, full rejection of my mother alreadyin the womb, rejection of my womanhood by my father( turning me into a boyfor many years) and their unhappy mistaken relation. I was the shyest andmagical kid. I danced and played..it saved me. Living in my fairy tale world full ofbeauty, adventure and magic saved me. And my dearest loving grandparentsdid it with full love.
This taught me to be fully me and always choose what I sense from the insideas the outside world doesn't know what real life is. To never agree on anythingthat is not loving and to rebel against circumstances that are not feeling right.To become the fire of transformation and inspiration by choosing what I feeland believe.
This traumatic start became a rocket fuel for my later discoveries, creations,
and the emergence of the inner knowing. I’ve digged deep enough to rich the
rock bottom of the story.
So called “normal world or normal people” never really touched me. I needed to feed the body, heart, and spirit as one and so I went througha lot of tribes and places to sniff around and meet my friends. My life gifts were emerging very soon and I’ve created my own paradiseat home, Magdalena’s first soul family.
My fire loves diversity and to consume a lot of human exchange. This fire brings people together to warm up and share their story’s .
To celebrate. To connect what is disconnected and set on fire what needs to expand or transform.
Beyond comfort zone
I have never stopped growing and stretching beyond my comfort zone. Living abroad for many years is number one.Dancing and performing on stage, number two. Meeting new groups and ideas number three. But I’m doing it as it’s what my soul asks for.At the age of 27 meeting my first tantra teacher (ex-student of Osho) opened up the whole new life to me. I’ve met Tantra for the first timeand I was burning to know more and learn it. Soon I was following Diamond Way Tibetan tantric Buddhism, ideal place for meditation,fun, mixed with a modern view on life and a lot of human exchange. Here I fell in love with my inner goddess - Red Dakini.She was there and I was preparing to receive her. In 13 years I grew up to the point of becoming free form any guru or group.For the first time in life really saying YES to myself, to my all powers & weaknesses.
Briefly and poetically:
“I am the Dakini of light the color of crimson roses and flowing blood
A Dancing Dakini I transmute the life energies into their spiritual origin
By changing weak currents into strong ones, dribbling energy into pounding waves
Opening blocks and barriers so that pain and pleasure may be experienced in their full strength
I am the guide and introducer of men to the spiritual path
I strengthen and purify them that they may encounter the divine light
I prepare them for the Great Awakening”
Being the Dakini is a pretty challenging role. Sometimes it is hard for me to accept what she brings as she is highly feminine,sensitive and wild. To manage it in our driven by control and greed society’s becomes edgy at times. It takes a lot of courage every dayto accept myself as I am and share it with people more and more openly.
Dakini is an awakened me, my fullness without shame, blame and rejection of anything that I am. Red Dakini is a fire, sexuality andfirst chakra, it's creatress & destroyer, passionate shaman, enchantress, joyful artist and drama Queen if needed. It's my love andsometimes my curse. She is a call of Mother Earth to rebirth feminine essence in all her forms and to recover inner & outer marriage.
Most of my wisdom and guidance came from within, discovery’s made through
the years of practice, healing and inner journeys on my own,
with the partners and tribe. I know and believe I can get you as far as I went
myself serving the essence of my whole life. Guiding hundreds
of men, woman & couples for the last 10 years opened up all of my healing
gifts to share with you the best way I can.
Since January 2013 I was receiving my first messages and initiations from
mother Gaia and other dimensions like initiations to the Red Dakini
body, dragon power, crystalline kundalini awakening, empowerment
to the queen of love. I was said to heal myself, to heal my
Sisters & Brothers and to make them Wild. To bring them back to their
instincts, playfulness, sharp senses, intuition, strong bodies,
fearless hearts and naturally flowing energy. To awake kundalini’s and
bring my tribe..
The the energy of a guru, a great teacher - someone who is
admired and listened reverently is completely outdated
for me however believe in my magnificence. I can feel it just as I feel all
my shadow and darkness. It has nothing to do with bragging, it is a simple
statement of fact, which came to me with great difficulty.
You can slowly and carefully begin to take responsibility also for your
It's about time for you to regain your Power. Your sovereignty.
If you dare I can guide you there.
I’m not a pleaser. You will receive your true reflection and you will learn to express your truth.
Truth is the key to any change and letting go of false programs running in us.
As more truth inside the fewer lies outside will catch us. Old patriarchal system fades away
melting collective hypnosis and the same process happens within us all.
as a remedy for seriousness and all crap that the outer world tries to sell us as real.
Joy reflects ego-free spirituality. It’s not about digging in our shit endlessly or being a Zen master.
Opposite, what we preach we become in our daily lives.
I do my best to boost your daily ecstasy.
as the purity of being and freedom of self-expression.
You will touch your wild beast that instinctively knows what is needed.
Sharp senses, playfulness, rooted in the body you start to feel free to say YES and NO
owning your claws and letting go of civilized control.
Loving arms and soft bedding
being a powerful means to own the soft,
broken parts as well. And be able to expose them when you are ready
Let my client describe it:
“ I want you to know that I am very grateful for the session of yesterday.
You brought me into a state beyond sexuality, into universal love.
You showed me your softness, your vulnerability, and your strength.
You let me remember that I have vulnerability and strength too.
And that there is no need to feel ashamed to show them.
I only have to take care that they keep balanced.”
And official education in Tantra and Shamanism
Yoni & lingam massage, Surrogate Partner Therapy by David Brown, Black Eros with John Hawken, The Shamanism and Tantra by Monika Michael,
Tantric and Orgasmic Bliss Birthing by Silja Rehfeldt, Pelvic- Heart Integration by Deborah Aanapol, assistance at Pelvic-Heart Immersion with
Tanya Rozental, Rivers of Love - erotic bodywork with David Bruce Leonard, Tantric Body de-armoring with Andrew Barnes.
In In my twenties, I was learning & performing flamenco for 10 years. Than international folk dances ( nowadays I'm a part of Balfolk group in
Rotterdam) and soon after my biggest love has arrived Belly Dancing. After 13 years of learning,performing and getting ready I’ve opened up
my own Belly Dance School in Wroclaw, Poland in cooperation with the School of Conscious Birth and Maternity called Woman and Nature
https://kobietainatura.pl/ . In 2010 I came to live and work in Amsterdam. I performed at a variety of venues, workshops, and projects.
I got a regular Oriental Delight party at De Griekse Taverna. I was cooperating with a Greek musicians and drummers.